♥ escape //

Life never has a dull moment for me. REALLY, my life is like one of those crazy reality shows, except I would (maybe possibly) be a good influence on the public instead of that over dramatic girl walking around with her shirt off (maybe) LOL JUST KIDDING!
I feel like some people, when I talk to them, offer an escape away from this bull poop, and accept me as the positive, loving, light that I am. =) It is great to find those people, and when I do... I am OH so grateful. XD

♥ firecrotch //

OK... so Team Firecrotch met at starbucks today. haha (Me, Brandon, Kayla, Mariah, Lexi)
We had fun. My favorite part was when me and brandon were riding home, and he REALLY opened up to me about everything... his sexuality, his conflicts, his past, his family.... and I felt pretty privileged to be let in on his life like that.
He told me about half way down the road that he REALLY wants to try our church because it is SO open... =) He will be joining us Sunday... YAY

♥ auras //

Oh my god! I stood up to get a drink just now, and saw my little brothers AURA... I now have the focus.... I know what state of mind I need to be in... I feel at one with god right now... not even KIDDING! This is SO SO SO SO SO SO exciting. =D

♥ maddie //

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This is Maddie being sassy and girly. Tell her to strike a pose, and this is about what you get. She is the epitome of precious.

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What was that? In the TREE!!!???



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She looks guilty here!


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Is that baby doll not the creepiest thing ever?

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I love this kid!

♥ church //

The more I attend church, the more I love it. It isn't a standard church... it is so open, and so real. I wish more people KNEW about it, because it matches so many belief systems now, and people have simply never HEARD of Unity... which is so insane to me... I have worked so hard to have confidence in my church, especially in the bible belt, and GUESS WHAT....? I finally due, and when people ask what church I attend, I say proudly "Unity Church Of Knoxville" and if they don't like it, I am at no fault for ignorance. =)

♥ memories //

I have ran through forests of memories lately. Today, I was talking to Mrs. Ridley, and we were talking about how much memory crutches can help in school. I mentioned to her about Mr. Gallagher's memory crutches, and how he said that teenagers are more likely to remember it if it is related to sex... and then we started talking about silly memory crutches...
I noticed how comfortable I am talking to her. She is a very wonderful woman, and she needs to believe it. I was laughing today when I told her I probably sound like her mom... haha. I will blog again tonight... I just need to remember some stuff.

♥ life //

Life is good. I went to school today, as I usually do, with a collection of positive affirmations. I ended up sharing them with Mrs. Ridley, who I think will be a regular character in this "story of my life" from now on...
ANYWAY... Mrs. Ridley looked through, and mentioned 2, and I ended up picking out an ADDITIONAL 5, and taping them all over her room, without her knowledge at the time... and NOW, She will find them all over, for quite some time... =D I wouldn't be surprised if they carried to next school year. XD
Speaking of Mrs. Ridley... I am very happy to have her around... I invited her to my blog, as I did the rest of you readers, BUT, I don't know if she ever looked at it. (Did you?)
I think she has a lot of beauty, and she just needs to up that confidence... I mean... really... she has GORGEOUS eyes, and her hair just works, and her smile is SO pretty! Now if only she believed it!


OK. So I came home today, only to find out I must nurture a child, age 3, and hold her while she cried and I explained she would be all better soon. I didn't mind. She is a beautiful person... she really is.
We got her all fixed, and she started crying, and climbed on my lap, and sat with me, and just cried... She doesn't communicate well, and she never said why... she just cried. Finally, she got up, and gave me a hug, and walked off to play. =)

♥ Rebecca //

Rebecca... so... I enjoyed talking to you today. Your blog post on your mom made me cry... your kids are adorable... and your take on sex not being intense exercise makes me laugh hysterically... My mom agrees... it counts... HAHA.

Anyway. the reason this is a post is because it deals with something I will want to look back at on record.

At this point in my life, I find it amazing that I got back in touch with you. It was like... just when I needed you in my life, you appeared. =) It is amazing how great you are, and I think your kids are SUPER lucky... because I remember in 4th grade, sitting on your lap while you braided my hair, and how much that made me happy. You have an amazing talent with children... and you are "fabulous!"
Happy mothers day!

♥ mom //

Mothers Day
It's a great day... Though I think it should be represented in the fall....
So my mom.....
OK... I have like 5 Mommy's

Cara- You are like, ALWAYS fun to handg out around... you make me smile, and we often see eye to eye... I love being called your daughter

Mama Lagana- You read me like a book... you almost have an intuitive connection with me... you never hold back, and you never fail to tell it how it is. We see eye to eye 99% of the time. I miss you like CRAZY

Jeanne- I don't really know what to put here... everything is pretty self explanitory. You seem to always know how to act, and what needs said... and you know how to empathize without acting extreme by any means. I am so grateful that you are a current part of my life.

Judi- HAHA. We can be sitting around, and I can feel your loving energy. You give the best hugs, and the best advice. You help me align my shakras, and sort out my thoughts. You have helped me on the journey (I am still on) to find myself. You are never TOO busy for me, and you always can make time when I need you. I love you!

Mom (GINA)- You know better than to ever be jealous of my other "Mommy's." You and I have the "ideal" mother-daughter relationship and I love it. You always can stop and make time, and yea, sometimes you gripe, or irritate me... but you are a great mom. You kept me... even though it ruined your plans in life... and you never have said you regret it. I love you so much that you have a lot of power to hurt my feelings...
I am not going to say you are by any means "flawless," but I WILL say that you are a PERFECT mother. You never cease to amaze me. I don't ever want to be a mom, as you know, but if I am, I hope I can be 10% the mopm you are. You are like a superhuman... you have such patience, and an ability to multitask... and this intuition that allows you to know whats on my mind before I do. I never feel it necessary to keep anything from you... and I never think I will... You are absolutely amazing... and such a beautiful person. I love you!!!

You don't give yourself enough credit. you have been through HELL and you probably have come out the strongest person I know. I will say you are my idol.

♥ affirm //

OK. Last night I had FUN. Judi came over and we tie-dyed shirts. It was very therapudic in a way... After the dying was done, we dug into craft supplies, and made unique decorated "nurturing" affirmations for EVERY person in the church as a mothers day event. It was amazing. Mine says "I allow my insecurities to become limitless wisdom."
AFTER she left... the power went out, and was out from about 10pm to 2am... We went in the front yard... and the lights were out for atleast 7 miles (I recieved lots of texts from friends in the county). SOOOO we decided to have glowstick party... like a rave... with no drugs (sigh). We had a blast... we laughed, and smiled... it was a great way to kick off mothers day.
Then today, we celebrated mothers day at church... and I cried as each member of our church spoke about their mom's...

♥ affirmations //

I am doing a positive affirmation assignment in my life. EVERY day I will pull a random affirmation from a bag, and pick apart how it is relevant in my life in hopes of bettering myself.
I want to have somebody else to do it with, so I asked Mrs. Ridley, because I am in her room everyday, and I don't think she will close her mind to the idea. It is supposedly MOST effective when you do it with 2 people... and I think I will benefit GREATLY

♥ oreo //

I was out sleeping on our porch swing as a "peaceful relaxation" in our chaotic home. So.... THEN I was awaken by a "MEOOOOWWW"
So I glanced over, and smiled at the sight of my cat, Oreo, staring up at me. I slid over, and he jumped up... snuggled under my arm, and fell asleep...

♥ peace //

I am TRULY begining to disagree MORE and MORE with this stupid war. I was ALREADY angry with the government for declaring war on Iraq in the first place... I understand we wanted to "HELP," but I do not think bombing their homes, children, and schools will be an effective method to help.
I think we pushed FEAR of Americans into the country, which MAY be what SOME people want, but I would prefer us to be a peaceful country!
TRULY, How will bombing, shooting, and invading promote freedom? We call it an Iraqi Freedom War, but they are simply prisoners, and they are enduring SO much for what? Some deaths? We were counting our SOLDIERS lost, but WHO counted the children, and the innocent people in the streets hiding from the Americans...? Who counted the people we shot, and who counted the soldiers who committed suicide after the sites? What made us such a selfish place...?
The propaganda in this country convinces us that we are free, but why must we shine lights on our flags at night, and why can we not marry within our sex? Who decided we should put "Go Army" on TV, when we already have thousands of soldiers who have volunteered? Why do we have to say the pledge of allegiance in school? Why should we every day say that we pledge ourselves to a country that has harmed so many others?
We don't think about it, but America has become one of the least liked countries, and we don't exactly promote acceptance of other countries... we see in the news all the bad in the world, but what about the good??? What about TOLERANCE????

"Once lead this people into war and they will forget there ever was such a thing as tolerance"
--Woodrow Wilson

♥ crying //

OK... Tap into my problems for me to pick at (I like trying to decipher my own mind, but I must put it in writing first)
I woke up last night, crying 2-3 times. And one time I woke up sweaty, and saying "GET YOUR HANDS OFF OF HER!"
I usually can tell you EVERY aspect of my dreams, vivid, and everything... even colors are something I remember... but not last night.
I remember nothing... just waking up upset

(PLEASE share your input with this one.)

♥ school //

I had an interesting day at school... I will try to fill you in... haha

SOOO... I woke up, and got dressed, and the WHOLE day started wrong.
I went to the bathroom to do my make-up, and spilled concealer ALL over my shirt... went back to change, stubbed my toe, and tripped on the chair in the office.

SO I headed to school to take the State Standardized Test. (BOO!) Today was science, and I stopped by Mrs. Ridleys class, where I knocked something over and spilled my purse... Then I cleaned that up, and just continued with my day
(by the way, I <3 talking to Mrs. Ridley... she is the only person I have met in Seymour who RELIGIOUSLY agrees with me, and also agrees with me on many controversial topics... She has also become somebody who I find to have a fascinating mind... in a great way... SUCH a learning experience even though i don't have her as a teacher,)

I went to first period, and met with Team Fire Crotch. They are my <3's of Seymour... I don't know what I would do without them. BUT, sure enough, the stupid announcement came on and I was headed to the test... UGH. It was SOOOOOOO easy.

Then I went to Mrs. Ridley's again, and told her how the test went. We played Scrabble, and I had fun.

Then I went to "That teachers" class again... and she was SURPRISINGLY nice to me, and didn't say anything upsetting as she had before... (Turning Point Of Day)

I headed to GUESS WHERE????? Mrs. Ridley's for lunch. I posted a blog while I was in there, and she came over and we talked and talked... as we always do... (We don't run OUT of things to talk about) haha... I almost feel bad, but, she talks just as much... sooo....

4th period some kid got in trouble for sexual harassment. Mr. Charlie was PISSED! He was so mad he didn't even yell... but, he came back, and was nice to the REST of us... and we chatted a bit, watched a movie... etc

*FUNNY POINT OF THE DAY*
Jenni: Ever since I broke up with Zach, there has been a HUGE weight lifted off me...
Mr. Charlie: That's a little too much information

♥ school //

Ugh! I have been testing all week!!! We had our final test for gateways in biology today. I am at lunch right now... there is always so much to talk about. I pulled a "brad" and spelled GOD in scrabble today but still lost. It has been WAY layed back. "That teacher" was oddly nice to me today... it threw me off, but I kept my "nice" composure, and smiled right back. =)

Right now I am just eating crackers, and felt like posting while I was in this classroom. =D Love you ALL!!!!!

love always,
Sami

♥ blogging //

WHY? I just have this urge to continue to post tonight. It's weird to blog about people who may be reading... so anyway... I am gonna go ahead and say that I was thinking about it... but... It never affected me before today... but suddenly I have this HMMMM about what people see... and then I realized it is positive 89% of the time, and the other 11, is just... well... deserved

♥ personality //

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Openness	89%
Conscientiousness	48%
Extraversion	89%
Agreeableness	73%
Neuroticism	38%

♥ influence //

OK. I have met a few influential people since I moved here.
Jeanne Lane. Like, really truly the epitome of amazing. You were there when I had my spiral toward the ground. I couldn't ask for a more amazing person! You light up the world!!!!! I feel a comfortable connection with you that gives me a sense of security and understanding.
Judi Talley. You are so amazing. It was great to find that in my little purple hoochiebobber at church, there was a sponsor who had a similar spiritual background in comparison to my family. You always have something intelligent to say, and always know what will make me feel better. You're so intuitive! I feel comfortable telling you ANYTHING, but usually, I don't have to say anything, and you figure it out!
Charlie Householder. You, Mr. Charlie, are a great teacher. You capture our attention, and really work with us on an individual level. We can trust you enough to give us advice, and you never treat us as inferiors.
Christi Ridley. OK. So, I JUST met you a couple weeks back, and it was like an insta-click. I absolutely love that you are so strong and open minded. I feel comfortable talking to you, and appreciate you more than you can believe. After being able to chat with you a few days ago, I realized just how AWESOME you are. We share many opinions, and you have a very amazing, loving heart.

♥ grrr //

OK. So a TEACHER I have got frustrated with SOME of the class, and made the WHOLE class write some stupid section from the book... I was like... bull, I will take a zero, I didn't do anything to deserve punishment. SO THEN, she hands me, and a couple other kids who refused to do the assignment a paragraph that she wanted us to copy 25 times with a negative affirming message... I will not affirm negative things about myself. Plain and simple. So, it's been DRAMA... drama is the only logical word.

♥ scared //

OK. I know what fear is... and there are many types... but... I am now standing up for something I believe in regarding a teacher in school... and personally, I am scared shitless! She LIED to my mom about me... I mean... REALLY??? I was crying upset today over this teacher! But, It is what I believe in....

"God endows us with sense and intellect.
God endows us with reason we neglect.
And despite the abolition by the current inquisition,
Of any intuition that they don't choose.
When it comes to God, I can’t believe that he designed
A human being with a mind he’s not suppose to use. "

--- Paraphrase of Galileo from Godspell.

I truly believe I have support in this movement against her action. I am terrified, but i feel that God has indeed prepared me for this beyond belief... =D

♥ sexuality //

So. It's know it completely natural to experiment with sexuality in your teen years... but personally, I am growing to ONLY be attracted to guys as friends... and become more and more physically and emotionally attracted to girls.
Yes, as you have previously read, I am not "pure" and I have engaged in sexual behavior... but, as most teens do, it was for the wrong reasons. I was seeking thrill, not anything more.
Now, as I think and dream more and more, and think on it... I know I am atleast bisexual... if not gay... and I am willing to post this, because I have a trust in all my readers who know me... including those in my church, school, family, and friends. I have no problem with the thought... and can assume that most of you will not either... anyway... I am who I choose, and maybe I AM just another teen going through a phase, and maybe not. Either way, it is my life to live... back off bee-otches!

♥ pictures //

♥ weekend //

This weekend was pretty great. My parents were out of town... which MOST teens would be excited to get away from parents, but me... I was happy my mom FINALLY got a chance to go on this retreat. She was looking forward to it like crazy. ANYWAY, I went on a couple photography walks that were about 5 miles each... I ruined a few clothes, and walked over an hour in the rain... and I have never been so happy with myself. My parents were out of town, and I didn't take advantage of it... I stuck to ethics, and kept a smile while I was home. I used my time to better myself, and not do anything they didn't want me too... It's crazy... I am so happy with it all... YEPPERS. I will upload the pics later... Just wanted to share the tales... the pics will follow soon!

♥ seasons //

Season is a very difficult word to define. I could be speaking of the 4 seasons, or the seasons of life. I am thinking right now... just as the time of year, I am in my life's spring. I am coming into new things and finding myself. I am blooming into the person I am going to be, and in the near future, things are looking good. Maybe a little rain on my parade here and there.
OK
Yesterday marked six months of living in TN. It's not really an accomplishment... but, it sort of is. I mean, that's half a year I survived. I moved here in mid fall, and now it is mid spring. It fit too.
Fall, I was feeling like all the things I worked for were just floating away... Like leaves falling from trees... I floated away from my safety zone, and left for good.
Then winter came. We took in my cousin, and I kept to myself basically. Sort of like animals retreating to there burrow to hide from the cold... I wanted nothing to do with this place.
Now it is spring... and I am ready to come out of this burrow, and greet the world with a smile... I am fully rested, and can't wait to be in this season.

♥ diary //

I love having a blog. It is like a diary, but the diary (readers) can talk back to me, and help me out with seeing things in a different light. No recent comments, but still... I continue to write. =)

♥ why //

Why does my mom have to go back to school?
Why does she have to work a busy job like this?
Why can't she hear me out?
Why won't she let me stay here?
Why?

OK. So... I don't want her to go back to school! She is going for her masters, which is great, but when she is in school I see her 2000x less. I will graduate by the time she does. So much for having my Mom around...
I mean, she put up this HUGE fight for me to stay around my senior year... and then, she is not going to... WTF?

Then she gets this job... great... money... lots... but... she is NONSTOP. 9 o' clock at night, she is working out a spreadsheet, noon, she is putting hours in... every day something like this

Then... like... I admit, OCCASIONALLY, I don't attend our FAMILY dinner, but she makes me feel like it's the only reason we don't talk... but I'm sorry, sometimes I want to say something to my mom in private, away from the table... it's not ALWAYS about something that is DINNER TABLE material, and guess what, just cause I want to talk after dinner, doesn't mean I "should have sat with everyone at dinner" because chances are, with EVERYONE chatting, anything important I want to say will get lost in convo.

Then, I present an exceptional set of ideas for why I could stay with my grandma if they moved 5 minutes away, and she got upset "It sounds like you don't wanna be around us."

She is such a hypocritical person....

♥ pictures //

So did I tell you, that I went in to my ex's mom's hair salon, and had an appointment with her... and the douche bag STILL hasn't told her we broke up...
and wanted me to LIE to her.... like... WHAT THE HELL... How am I supposed to stay true to the me inside, when the asshole I care about most wants me to fucking lie, even though it was very clear... the whole "I will support you in tough times".... He will probably deny that... but guess what... I have proof of that one... it was sent in writing... OH yea... forgot about that didn't you Casey....?

You know... it's one thing to be an ASS on your bad days... it's another to be an ASS all the time... and that I feel is what it has come to. So much for staying best friends/close friends

OK...
Now thats out. pretty pictures I snapped this week

♥ epitome //

OK. So...
Catch up.
Last thursday, we cleaned up the river as an earth week event for recycling club and science. It was AMAZING. We cleaned up SO SO much, and we had fun. The water was freezing. Good times.
haha

Then FRIDAY
I came home from school, and Grandma and Esther were in the hospital! WhAT THE frog?
anyway. thats all I can say now...
I have to go. call/text me

♥ week //

This week has been the epitome of blessed. I had a chance to see Penguin... which I have missed immensely. I also got to go SHOPPING... I got LOADS of new stuff. And as far as spiritual goes... I had an amazing chance to go to Unity Village. Even though I complained of boredom, overall, this week was PRICELESS.

OK. My Penguin is Skyler... My little cousin. he is three years old. He has GROWN so so so so much... and I was SO happy to see him. I played ball with him, rode little 50 cent rides at the mall, and even tucked him into bed. I love him so much. I finally told him I was going home, and he gave me this sad look and said Sami, you can't go. I don't want you to. You can stay here with me," and I felt so bad. =(

We also did some shopping. Overall, I got about $250-$300 worth. It included a sweater, 9 shirts, 3 jeans, a skirt, 2 pairs of shoes, 1 scarf, 1 necklace, a purse, and a pair of sunglasses. I think thats it. I love shopping. I always tell Poppy: "Shopping is my sport, and you are my sponsor."

I also had a chance to visit Unity Village. You can get a better understanding of it if you Google Unity Church. I can't really tie everything in. But, Unity helped me with this trip a LOT. If I would have been here a year ago, I would have been filled with hate and anger, but instead, I chose to see the Christ, and good intention in everyone. I felt the appreciation. =)

Overall I would say it was a great trip. I saw new things, re-united with people I loved, and came back with both memories, and tangible items. I am eager to come back in the summer to see what is in store for me!

♥ perfect //

Yes... I admit... At the start of this trip, I, the optimist, was a pessimist. BUT... My spirits have changed over the past couple days... now that I am DOING stuff... Like.. for example... today... we went to UNITY VILLAGE! It was PURE fun. I loved it... we drove around, walked the labyrinth, visited the bookstore, had an amazing smoothie, and headed to the road again.
On the road, everytime we passed a car, I stuck out my toungue, and wiggled my fingers by my ears, and said "blooloolooloo" at the driver of the vehicle we passed. I got 2 people to do it back, and countless to laugh along.
Then, we spontaneously decided to stop at the house where amelia earhart was born... and we took a tour of the home... by the way... it was CREEPY!!!
Now I am home, and I am uploading some pics... and about to go to work with my grandma... and shop some more.

♥ kansas //

OK. I flew in Saturday. It was fun... I went to the Casino with Jamie. We had a blast. I discovered a good cupholder is your own cleavage... even though you look like a RETARD trying to drink from it... LMAO...
OK... then EASTER... we went to Jamie's and colored eggs, and hid plastic ones for Penguin. Then we went to Uncle Reggies... which I haven't seen in about 6 years.
It was fun.
Moday... we went shopping... I got an amazing sweater... that normally would be a "hell no" because it was 55 bucks... I also got a new pair of skinny jeans and 2 shirts. I have a new camera... and tomorrow, I will be doing more shopping after heading to unity village.
YAY!
today we went and saw buffalo! haha... quack. and then I hung out and took a walk around our town. =)

♥ hope //

OK... so we broke up... but we still hang out... he said that we will always be close friends... and now, we are REALLY starting to get along again... it was a fight I think... but I think we will be back together... I said NO UP AND DOWN relationships, and said I will only go back ONCE... if we break up twice, I won't deal with it.

So, today, we went to the Karaoke Cafe, which is his work... and I sang an ADAPTATION of Stacy's Mom, and made it Casey's Mom... he was SO embarrassed... but he hugged me again... =)

Now I am going to get some rest.... I have 6 hrs of airline to deal with tomorrow.

♥ love //

Sometimes, I have learned, even though it is hard, if you love somebody, you must let them go. I never quite understood that until recently... and I realized, I had to let go, because even if it hurt, it was what was best for the other person. I continue to struggle through this one. I have never been so torn up over a break-up... but we saw each other in school, and though it felt quite awkward, we hugged, and moved on with our days... I moved to my next class where I cried. I am so emotionally beat, but I have kept a smile on my face. I am glad to know people around me support me...
Those people, I assume, do not know me behind closed doors, and have no clue that I have cried myself to sleep for the past three nights, and am teary again...
I am in denial I believe... my valentine gift is still on my wall, and I just CAN'T take it down... and a picture of us, along with items that were left at my house... I will be sending them back soon... but its quite difficult.

♥ snow //

It's april... and it is a snow day? WHAT IN THE WORLD?
Oh well. Gives me an opportunity to get shit done...
preparing for kristy...
Can't wait to see her.

♥ minister //

I have gone through MANY things I want to do...
but all my ideas lacked ONE of the things I want in a job...
My biggest passions:
Helping people
Performing
Reaching out to children
Keeping sense of faith
Music
and a constant love, and acceptance from the people around you...

OK... So... I thought of acting...
But, I may not be able to get into that... Not only is it competitive, but it also tests one's morals, and it has a lot of hatred from competitors.

Then Psychology...
But... that takes away from my performing....

So I thought teacher...
but in the schools now, I can't express my faith, and be accepted in a primarily christian society...

So I thought and thought...
and POOF...
I have it///
I want to be a minister for unity...
the beliefs are right with mine,
I love praying with the group
and leading service was a major highlight for me...
=)

♥ friends //

OK... so people have been asking ALL day and yesterday, and the day before if I really am single again... and I am... indeed. I was VERY sad to break the relationship off... and cried all day saturday... but I decided I am gonna be happy... no up and down relationships... just fun being a teen... =) We are still gonna be FRIENDS with each other, but not dating right now...
When you love somebody to a certain extent, they will leave a big footprint on your heart, so of course I still have feelings, but, I know that I am moving on with my life... and that every love will have a place in my heart.... forever... even if things don't work out..
I hold no grudge, and promote loving, positive energy....
I am Sami Simplicity
And I am Strong

Strength does not mean that I will not show emotion... it means that I will express and acknowledge my feelings, let them out, and accept them in order to move on... I have shed, and probably will shed countless tears over this... and I am happy to say so...
I got an amazing friendship out of this relationship, and I will be fine... and I will be a body in representation of internal strength and will power...

OK...
thats my lil PREACHIN' CLIP for the day////

♥ cry //

I have no reason logically in my head. It is SO weird... I am happy, and excited, and just over the top happy, but I feel sad tears swelling my eyeballs... =( WHY? I am HAPPY... I am excited... logic says I have no reason to cry
It was April FOOLS...
I LAUGHED today
then I found out Kristy will be here
and then there was a short setback with Esther having pneumonia...
and we took my friend Sydney home after rehearsal, which I did exceedingly well in...
and THEN life got greater as I looked forward to tomorrow...
and I realized how much fun time I have ahead of me this week...
I ate a YUMMY dinner
and worked on my Literary Analysis paper on James Hurst...

So WHY? WHY the sad, overwhelming feeling?

♥ worried sick //

Esther, my aunt... just moved to TN with us... she is living a few miles off... and a few days ago... they had to take her to the ER... she wasn't breathing...
Well... she still has yet to see home.
Each night, they have said they are keeping her "AGAIN", and "AGAIN"... but never "JUST ONE MORE NIGHT..."
WELL
Today I discovered, she has icky pneumonia...
NOW... I understand this isn't too big of a deal...
but in my state of mind... she has other health problems
her sister had OTHER health problems... and she died when she got pneumonia.
=(

♥ psyched //

Amy is here... Tomorrow
Kristy is here... Next week
Sami is here... TO STAY
My plane is here... Next week

I have a busy, fun filled future ahead of me... for shizzle....