Our song.

So, as some of you know, back in June, a went through a miscarriage. It was very difficult... but the father of my baby decided he was going to walk out before I lost the baby.
If I would have remained pregnant, and he came around, I would be able to forgive him... but now... if he ever did come back and apologize, now it would be so hard to forgive him completely.
It really breaks my heart... not just that I lost the baby, but also the person I felt was the love of my life.
Now, I am sitting here... listening to our song... For the First Time... by The Script.

It really is our story. We split almost 3 years ago, if you guys remember. His name was Casey... and I was madly in love.
Then, we broke up, and we had other dating and relationships... but we ended up back together.

The song's chorus says it all
"We're gonna start by drinkin on cheap bottles of wine...
Sit, talking up all night

doing things we haven't for a while
we smile but we're close to tears

and even after all these years
we just now got the feeling that we're meeting...
for the first time"

We did start with cheap wine and small talk that lead to long conversations...
I miss him. Weird. I never thought I'd feel this way.