♥ parents //

My parents are arguing. I hate it when they do. It's always because my mom stands up for me when my dad is just being an ass... Today I really feel bad about it though... I don't think I did anything wrong... BUT... I FEEL like I did. My dad just got pissed, and walked out and drove off. He has such a temper... but the worst he does is yell. I think Mom is embarrassed... because we are in her mom and aunt's home... and she gets embarrassed when her family acts out...
All the little kids in the house were arguing... and the old remote is missing... SO, my mom told my brothers and cousin to look for it... I cam in a few minutes later, and mom asked me to help. I said "Maybe we should ask Kris, because he keeps it on his bed." Kris was not in the room at the time, but my dad just went ballistic and was all "Just find the fucking remote... quit trying to blame people... he had it, she had it"
And then I started to cry. And he was just like "Oh REAL mature. 'I had a bad day so I'm gonna go and throw a fit and cry'" So... My mom interrupted and told him he was being really unfair and that I didn't do anything... and so he didn't say anything... and he just left... I sort of feel like it was my fault. If I wouldn't have said anything, and if I wouldn't have started crying, none of this would have happened...
=(

♥ talking //

I want to talk to somebody... I want to vent... I want to know somebody is there for me... and it seems that I can't get that. I feel like my mind is an open book that nobody wants to read... yet it is DYING to share its contents. I have cried a lot lately... My boyfriend and I have not got to hang out in over a week... and we won't be able to until Monday AT LEAST assuming he doesn't go out of town. I miss Florida so bad. I wish I could go back. I am overwhelmed, crowded, grounded, sad, let down, and feeling guilty. Little emotions all pile up and create this huge weight on my shoulder...and I wish I could talk to somebody to lift it off...

♥ this sucks balls //

Just as the title says. Church is closing... and I really love it... I cried when I found out... it really stinks. It was my salvation when I moved here... now... it is still a large amount of that salvation... It really hurts to see it go down... I know I am saying this for selfish reasons... but I felt like it gave me what I always had looked around for: acceptance. People there accept our family as wiccans, democrats, gay rights supporters, and total weirdos... My individuality and free spirit are not shunned there... It is shunned in our society... but there I can let my child like laughter shine, and nobody frowned upon it. I love the people there because they ALSO have a childlike spirit that fills the room with a welcoming, open mind... not ruined by society... did that make any sense? I think it will if you know me like that... if not, you are probably saying "WHAT THE HELL IS SHE SMOKING?"

♥ love //

I love him. Have I mentioned it. I don't know why I know... I don't know HOW I know... it's this feeling I can't describe. I told him about my church closing today... and even though he isn't religious... he knows I love my church, and he showed empathy, and really felt bad... Even though the church makes no difference in his life, he knew I was upset, and he was there. I love him so much.... I don't understand. =) Oh... THIS is what love feels like.

♥ lately //

A lot has happened over the past few days. Me and Casey celebrated our 2 months... =) YAY. We have been so happy lately. I had my drama rehearsals... and it's so fun... I got grounded... OH TEENAGE YEARS HOW I LOVE YOU... and everything I do is with a smile now. I am not upset I am grounded, because the good things in my life right now outweigh the bad. =) plain and simple.

♥ worth //

What am I worth? It seems the only people in my life who love me, want to change me... They all want something different though... I don't know who to please... Casey is worried for me... he thinks medicines mess with peoples head... and take away quality that is of the pure mind... My mom wants me to take medicine so I can function in a society I despise. She has been with me my whole life though...
And I think in concepts... instead of words... I know what I want to say, but I NEVER seem to be able to share it. I wish I could share my ideas with the world, but the English language possesses no words to describe my thoughts, and no definitions of the absent words either... I can't even explain what I am trying to say in this blog... because it's absent..
I love you Casey. I want you to know that!

♥ shoes //

Shoes. I love them. I have countless pairs. I went today with Dad, Kris, Justin, and Ginny. =) We all got shoes at journeys. I love shoes. I love shoes... YAY... haha I got a really cute pair, and a few shoelaces. =) They are a blue and white Roxy tennis shoe, with Journey splatter laces. =) I <3 shoes.

♥ philosophy //

I have been deep in thought lately about religion. I vaguely recall a teacher once telling me I should be a philosopher. I was talking to Jeanne today and she said I have "an old, wise soul". This made me think. I have always bee insightful.
I wanted to type out a few thoughts.
Romance
Romance is hard to understand. Before you can create a relationship that will last with somebody ELSE, you first must create one that will last with yourself. By this I mean... You must love yourself. It is challenging, but do not change for society's "ideals." Change for YOU... to be a HAPPY you... and when you love yourself, THEN find somebody who loves you... but ONLY if they love the you that you love...
Happiness
Happiness is TRULY a choice. I never believed it was true until recently. I now feel that a fake smile, and an inner monologue can cure sadness. Lets say, your boyfriend leaves you for another girl... and you are sad and angry. You can first fake a smile... then give yourself an internal monologue. By this I mean TELL yourself WHY you should be smiling.
(ie. "I am happy I found out now. I can move on with my life, instead of staying with an unfaithful person. I can find somebody worth my time. I AM worth somebodies time")
You must avoid the negative thoughts... eventually, that thought will become genuine happiness, which will then become confidence.
Also, I believe we choose without realizing it... that we WON'T have childlike happiness. As if it is wrong to smile when you blow bubbles. I keep a small journal, and I write little simple things that I smile at each day... for example... today I wrote... "Marshmallows in hot chocolate, Reeces, and grass with little seeds." because I enjoyed those things today.
We must remind ourselves that society sets standards based on trends... and we can not let our individuality, and beliefs sink into trend. There is nothing wrong with naming stuffed animals, and smiling when you see flowers. There is nothing wrong with pointing out constellations, and calling out shapes in clouds. The ONLY thing wrong with it, is that our society shuns it. It is our job as a new generation to make HAPPINESS a trend.

♥ knoxville //

Gotta love knoxville. OK... So today we started hanging out after school. We went to Carlee's house. At Carlee's, we hung out in her room. We tried to give Casey a mohawk. That turned out with his head in the kitchen sink, shampoo, a brush, a towel, and Casey whimpering. =) Then he had to go to work, so we headed out for sushi... eww. The soup was yummy. Then we went to "Time Warp Tea Room" and me and Carlee both peed like 4 times. haha. We all had different drinks, and hung out in the room with the couches. We took pics and did Henry's hair. It was hilarious. So we went back to the sushi bar, because Carlee forgot her money... o.O and then she got it back, and the bitch there was like "You aren't gonna leave ANY of it..." and she got this "pity" look on her face and said "You know we only make 2 dollars an hour. But I mean, if you don't want to... It's cool I guess" and poor Carlee had like 5 waitresses staring at her, so she sorta HAD to give them a tip... it was pathetic. BUT, after that, the night was simple.. =) I got a kick ass Amy poster, and that's about it. =)

♥ candy //

We made homemade candy today. We ziplined for a bit. It was SO fun. I have alot of sugar in my blood. I ate so much candy. i <3 the coconut, cinnamon, and the butterscotch. The clove was OK... and the raspberry and tangerine were bearable... not my favorite. The dinner Melissa made was heaven. a spicy chicken cheese spaghetti. Best meal I have had in months.
=)

♥ his family //

I absolutely LOVE Casey's family. Today, as I left school, Casey explained that his great-grandmother was coming into town. So I got my mommy's permission to go with Casey to his grandma's house. Once we got there, his mom and siblings were there already. They were all so welcoming. His great-grandma showed up shortly after we arrived. She is 81 years old, and she is going to be learning to FLY. Amazing. Haha. We ate dinner, and went outside (brr) and got into the hot tub... (OH! not brrr) Yep. It was really fun. BUT the day had to come to an end... tomorrow we will be making candy with his grandma.

♥ sigh //

I feel awful. I don't know what it is. It just suddenly hit me. This AWFUL feeling. I can not even explain what it is. Its a mix of unexplained guilt, anger, grief, and frustration. AGH! I don't know. It's really sudden. Like I was just sitting at the computer on facebook, and for some sudden reason, I feel this way. I was happy. and then POOF... no more happy me. =/

♥ sundays //

I love them. Today Casey didn't have to work. It was so nice. FIRST OFF, I love church, I feel accepted and welcome there. SO, he texted me during church, and told me he was off! SO, I got really happy. I came home and called him. He is amazing. We went out, and to the mall. We ate dinner. He finally feels all better. <3 yay! I love these new pics. It shows that we are both really theatrical. He doesn't know how well he does in front of a camera. =) I adore these. Just a few of the many I snapped today. =)





~<3~ THE MUSIC ~<3~ We saw twilight together for our first date. I was sitting in his den with him 3 days later listening to Iron and Wine. I recognized the AMAZING song that was the last on the album. He knew exactly where I knew it was from. I had seen twilight three times, he had seen it one time. He knew it was the song Bella and Edward danced to at the end. That CD was what we were listening too the first time we kissed. <3 EVERY song in the playlist has SOME significance like that. MOST are Casey and I... BUT, other songs have that type of meaning with OTHER people too. ^_^

♥ valentines //

I CAN NOT live with out him... I know I am in love because EVERY TIME he smiles my heart skips a beat, and when he texts me, I smile. And knowing he is happy is enough to make my day. I think about him when I wake up, and when I go to sleep. I trust him not to break my heart. When he frowns, it breaks my heart, and when he criticizes himself, I hurt. I think he is the most beautiful thing I have ever layed eyes on. Every time he kisses my cheek, I blush, and when he hugs me, I never want to let go of him, and I hope he never lets go!

I saw him right there
It is how I recall
His eyes, and his hair
His smile and all

He stared right at me
And I knew it was right
We were meant to be
It was love at first sight.

Now it's been quite a while
And still we stand strong
My heart skips when he smiles
And it moves me along

There is nobody who I could love more
And he's the only one I would die for.

♥ carlee //

Today was supposed to be another day in knoxville. We were supposed to get sushi. WELL... at 10 am, Casey called me. He had a stomach virus. SO... I texted carlee... and we ended up hanging out all day together. We got drinks at sonic, and sat for a while. we figured out we wanted to go to target. SO we listened the whole way to a bunch of silly music. SO, at target, I decided to get Casey a "get well soon" bear. We picked out chocolate for carlee, and a bear for casey. Then we POPPED in and surprised Casey. =) we are cool people.

♥ blogging //

I didn't blog yesterday, for there was a black out in our sub division, as well as many of Seymour's OTHER sub divisions. BUT... I had fun last night... We lay out under the stars in blankets. and saw a shooting star. We also saw the ISS. It was amazing. The cool breeze carried the smell of the rain that had just passed. It was priceless.
Then today... I saw LOTS of balloons, and lots of bears, and flowers, and chocolates, and cards... It made me feel all left out... THEN after the last class of the day, my boyfriend came out and gave me a card that said "Je suis amoureux de toi, Sami!" I looked at him with a very confused expression... and he said "I am in love with you, Sami!" I was like AWWWWWWE...

♥ lmao //

The FUNNIEST convo I have had in a LONG time!
Couldn't retrieve chat history

9:30pm
Jeanne

I answer questions in my head in lyrics

a lot



9:30pm Sami

hahahaha

thats cool..



9:30pm Jeanne

I don't always do it outloud but I sure want to



9:30pm Sami

I don't find it the least bit weird... which is weird



9:30pmJeanne

I've learned when it's not appropriate



9:30pm Sami

hahaha



9:31pmJeanne

I've had some strange looks

in the past



9:31pm Sami

Business Meeting: "I'm to sexy for my shirt"

lol



9:31pm Jeanne

people moving away from me quickly

egg zachary



9:31pm Sami

I wouldn't

I'd start singing aloud with you

hahahaha



9:31pmJeanne

i know you wouldn't...and that is why I LOVE YOU

we are peas in a pod



9:31pmSami

see...

I like you because of this

Yep! Peas in a pod!



9:32pmJeanne

I'm the fatter one in the middle



9:32pmSami

hahahaha

Thats only cause I have half the average americans weight



9:32pmJeanne

well you are cute as ......

pie



9:32pmSami

pie?



9:33pmJeanne

yea



9:33pmSami

I can live with that....



9:33pmJeanne

rhubarb

and strawberry

a little sour with your sweet

lol



9:33pmSami

you literally have me LAUGHING OUT LOUD

haha



9:33pmJeanne

the perfect blend of sweet and sour



9:33pmSami

hahahaha



9:33pmJeanne

with a little crust around the edges



9:33pmSami

OK... You are pumpkin....



9:33pmJeanne

for effect



9:33pmSami

or cheesecake



9:34pmJeanne

yea....that's me

cheesecake

yum

with blueberries

on top

and whipped cream

and crunchies



9:34pmSami

a bit sweet... but a very odd taste... yet extremely joyful



9:34pmJeanne

smooth and creamy



9:34pmSami

hahahaha

Jeanne is SMOOTH



9:34pmJeanne

egg zackary

smooooooooothe



9:35pmSami

bahahahaha



9:35pmJeanne

full bodied



9:35pmSami

who is this Zachary... lol... He has eggs?



9:35pmJeanne

that's my attempt at sounding asian on IM



9:36pmSami

LMAO!!!!



9:36pmJeanne

lol

teeeehheeeeee



9:36pmSami

an asian....

that made me lol



9:36pmJeanne

I'm giggling so hard



9:36pmSami

me too

I made you really laugh!!!

WOOOOOO



9:37pmJeanne

ok...well...I'm going to giggle on outta here and read a while



9:37pmSami

You said it out loud didn't you?



9:37pmJeanne

have a good night.....



9:37pmSami

Oh

OK

haha



9:37pmJeanne

I did

lol



9:37pmSami

I did too

lol

thats why I asked

OK...

I'll let you read now...



9:37pmJeanne

yea...we're sitting here at our computers just laughing in to the ethers



9:38pmSami

yea

we are fruitarded

I love you... and I guess I will chat with you later

=)=)



9:38pm
Jeanne is sitting here at my computer with Sami...giggling out in to the ethers....SMOOOTHE.



9:38pmSami

SMOOOTHE



9:38pmJeanne

alrighty...check out my status

you did



9:39pmSami

hahahaha



9:39pmJeanne

I was sneezing so hard I couldn't get it typed fast enough



9:39pmSami

lol



9:39pmJeanne

again....



9:39pmSami

This is one of those happy nights

I can tell

you will sleep good tonight



9:39pmJeanne

yea.....a happy night...a nappy night



9:39pmSami

yep



9:39pmJeanne

yea...even though I came home and took a 2 hour nap this afternoon

I needed it



9:40pmSami

Yes...



9:40pmJeanne

I had some STRANGE thoughts during that nap



9:40pmSami

cuz you were "Chasing that dam.... dang horse"



9:40pmJeanne

yep



9:40pmSami

and what? Strange thoughts or dreams?



9:40pmJeanne

got a fence guy coming tomorrow to talk about repairs



9:40pmSami

oh OK thats a good thing



9:41pmJeanne

It was like I was on the verge of waking and I had strange thoughts going through my head



9:41pmSami

OH..

OK

I get whatcha mean



9:41pmJeanne

I don't remember them egg zachary...but I just remember thinking "this is so odd".

my right ring finger is so slow sometimes when I'm typing



9:42pmSami

Oh...

?



9:42pmJeanne

all the rest work just fine



9:42pmSami

Right finger?



9:42pmJeanne

right ring finger



9:42pmSami

DID YOU BREAK IT?



9:42pmJeanne

nope



9:42pmSami

then... why is it slow?



9:42pmJeanne

it just doesn't always do the keys in the right order...

?



9:43pmSami

oh

its retarded

hahahaha



9:43pmJeanne

there you go

like my whole left hand



9:43pmSami

I started laughing again



9:43pmJeanne

well...I'll leave you laughing....

on that note

lalalalal



9:43pmSami

my tummy hurts from laughing... OK... I LOVE YOU



9:43pmJeanne

loveyou, too



9:43pmSami

Bye bye



9:43pmJeanne

teeeeeewwwwwww

buy



9:44pmSami

sweet dreams

night



9:44pmJeanne

now I'm laughing...



9:44pmSami

WHY?



9:44pmJeanne

I meant to type bye



9:44pmSami

oh

hahahaha

Your just being plain goofy



9:44pmJeanne

it's always good when you can entertain yourself



9:44pmSami

go read... lol...



9:44pmJeanne

ok

gnight



9:44pmSami

nighty night

♥ titles //

I don't like how I have been doing my titles to much. It was sort of my signature thing... but I am going to switch it up a little. I think its time for a change... SOOOO... I'll get to uniform posts again... I just wanna change something. OKEEDOKEE? Thought I'd blog about my blog titles lol.

♥ amy //

AMY IS COMING TO KNOXVILLE! I am so ecstatic. She messaged me on facebook, and told me to find a place... so I did. I sent her the places info, and we are gonna see her in 6 short weeks. EEEK... She is my hero! OK... You guys HAVE to see her... Time Warp Tea Room... april 2nd... time has still YET to be passed on to me. I'll post it soon!

&ill;

I have been sick for a few day. I have been able to fight it off... then yesterday (When I started running a fever) I went and took a nap. I had a dream that god was sitting in a little guard shack... and I had to go meet with him... but he was stoned... and I was asking if I could just go to heaven and he replied "Dude, I can't let you in. You were a prostitute" So I was like "WTF? Where should I go then?" and he says "I don't know man, but you can't come here... " It was QUITE bizarre.
Then I woke up, and my mom asked me to clean the bathroom... a few moments later, I come out, and my fingers and lips are BLUE... SO we took a trip to the ER, and it turns out I had bronchitis, and low oxygen, and it was way awful...

&dreams;

What are they saying. I had a few dreams last night that were EXTREMELY vivid.
1. I was running through the mall. There were escalators EVERYWHERE. My friend and I, were running from a wasp... because we were both allergic. And it just kept following us. I COULD NOT escape this thing... We kept running, and every time we would hall butt down an escalator, we would lose it for a moment... then It was on our trail again... FINALLY I think we outran it, and then it faded. The dream went black.
2. I was at an Amy Steinberg show... She was much more popular, and we were at the House of Blues. She had just came from a high school reunion... and I had a back stage pass. There was an intermission, and I stepped back stage. Amy was crying hysterically. I could not figure out why... and she was trying to leave the show... It just seemed out of character... So I walked up to her, and grabbed her arm... and told her to snap out of it... she just looked at me... and pulled and walked away... I finally yelled... I was like "AMY! STOP IT! You have a BUNCH of fans out there waiting." So she finally said something: "Why?" She was asking WHY she had fans out there... so I asked why not... and she started flipping. She told me that her high school reunion was nothing but hell... and they all were angry with her... I don't know why... But finally I convinced her to go back on stage. Later that night... she asked me if I knew how to knee board... and I woke up.

&today;

Today was the epitome of amazing. SO... We have had NO school this week due to snow. We had a two hour delay today, and went to school for about 5 hours. After school, Casey, DJ, Carlee, and I went to sonic for happy hour. After "racing there" in rush hour traffic, we sat down, and laughed A LOT... We decided to go into downtown Knoxville for the remainder of the day. We didn't get home until AFTER sunset...

So... Downtown, we first parked through an alley way. We walked back out of the alley, and there was some AMAZING graffiti on the walls (I <3 graffiti... You can see some GREAT art). We headed out, and walked EVERYWHERE we crossed so many streets, I lost count. Then we stumbled upon an art gallery. We headed inside, and saw some KICK ASS art.There was a dress made of plastic cups and straws, and I was in awe looking through this collection of work.

Then we headed out, and crossed lots of other streets... haha... and we got to "Old City" which was out original plan. It was my first visit. So we stopped at Java, a coffee shoppe on that strip. I had the ABSOLUTE best hot chocolate I EVER have had. It was amazing. Casey and Carlee got Mint Mochas, and of course we all sampled eachothers drinks. The Mint Mocha was HEAVEN.

After we drank MOST of our coffee, we headed out... and we got to our parking lot, and they decided to visit their friend, Amy, who was working downtown... so we walked to the shop, and hung out for a while... It was SO much fun...

Finally, we were done with everything, so we headed back... away from the city, to Seymour, the little town we live in. By the time we got home, it was DARK... We laughed all the way home, and listened to music. It was a blast.

Next week we are going to get sushi. It's not my thing, but they like it. I will probably get something different...

ANYWAY... I haven't been blogging as much, but I will be again. It's been a hectic week. =) and it's finally over... WHEEEEEE!

&hey;

Hey guys. I really just feel like blogging right now... SO... lets take a journey into my insane mind.
Here are some random clippings:

OK... so I know somebody right now... who has terminal cancer. She is absolutely amazing, and has a very positive energy. I came to the realization a couple days ago, that she is going to die. It was quite painful.

My little cousin Ginny, who I blogged about a few days back, will be here TONIGHT. I also found out that her mom and sisters will be moving up here in a couple weeks also. I've missed them all so much. I'm psyched.

Brittany (my little sister) just turned sixteen on Feb 2. I am so happy. When I first became her friend, we were both awkward and self conscious. Both of us since then, have grown into confident, beautiful ladies.

I have been chatting with Amy. If you know me, you know she is like my idol. She told me to be aware that she fucks up too... and I wrote her a letter about it. She said it almost made her cry... good tears of course...

I hit 1400 friends on myspace today. Isn't that coolioolio? haha. If you know me, I am a myspace whore. BUT I have recently discovered facebook, and am simply addicted. I may give up myspace all together.

&skating;

We went roller skating today. The place was EMPTY... only 1 other group was there. We had a blast. I dug out my old skates, and had a BALL. I had fun attempting to embarrass my lil brothr. HAHA. Kris has skates, but Justin, he had to rent. It's ok, because he really can't skate anyway. =) Either way we had fun.

&love;

I started out today, NOT so happy. BUT then at about noon, I chatted on the phone with my love. We decided to go to lunch, then changed our mind, then lunch happened around 2:30. He took me to KFC... we had fun... then we came back to the house, and lay in my room listening to Amy Steinberg. I just layed there for an hour, against his shoulder. It was WONDERFUL... Then I chatted with Amy, and realized once again, I don't have anything for him for VALENTINES... Then I figured it out... but I can't post it, because he might read it. =)

&guilty;

Why do I feel guilty. I don't know what I did to feel guilty... but sometimes you feel guilty for what you can't change... and I wish I could change things. I don't know what my issue is. I am fading. I need somebody to talk to... Send me a message on facebook, or text me (407)496-7325

&homesick;

Ugh. I am really homesick. I feel extremely overwhelmed, and just want to cry. My mom is all stressed, and she snaps alot when she is stressed. I can't stand being in these situations. I miss Brittany. I don't like the cold. It's Brittany's sweet 16... That's my baby sister... and I can't even see her. I don't know whats happening with Mrs. Gallagher... and All the people I would normally go to for a crying shoulder aren't here. I don't know where to go. I feel so lost... and it sucks. I don't recall the last time I felt so isolated from the people around me. I am not a Seymour, TN type of person. I miss the city, and the palm trees. I cry too often, and I smile so much less. I'm tired of racist rednecks saying hurtful things to me about where I'm from. I don't like this place. The only thing good here is my family, my boyfriend, and a few select people. I wish we could move back to Orlando. Or atleast into Knoxville. I don't even know who I can trust to tell this to... It's so hard, but I know I need to stick it out. Even though I HATE what life has given me this time, a large part of me still remembers the important people who are here for me. I really love those people, and I know they care about me too. I just wish I could be with them. I don't know if ANYTHING I typed in this blog made sense, but it was just a big jumbled mess of random thoughts.

&snow;

It was only supposed to drop to 45 today. When I woke up it was 56 degrees out. then at 11 it started snowing.
I got snowed OUT of school. They told us to all go home at 11. SO... I came home with my boyfriend... then my brothers came home... They are out RIGHT now making a snowman. It's a BIG one... I will take a picture and upload it later. I am so happy. I have only seen snow fall 2 times. It's gorgeous here! Click the pic and it gets bigger. <3 The snow is so pretty (and I am too.) haha. SNOW!!!

Mrs. Camarata

OK... So I mentioned last week, that I found an old teacher of mine... WELL... I was thinking about the CRAZY occurrence, and realized WHY I had been making an effort to find her... WHY she had such a big place in my heart.

I was an advanced student in 4th grade at Passport Charter in Orlando. I was in a mixed class of 4th and 5th grade students. I worked out of all of the 5th grade books, and Mrs. Camarata (at the time Miss Reay) was the "5th grade teacher". Well in our down time, Mrs. Camarata would french braid my hair on daily basis.

She mentioned this on the phone the other day, and when I thought enough about it, I have A LOT of memories of that year. We went to Islands of Adventure on a field trip, and she was my chaperon. I was ABSOLUTELY terrified of roller coasters, and she managed to convince me to ride my first BIG roller coaster. NOW I have ridden COUNTLESS coasters.

Then, we went CAMPING as a field trip, and she slept in the bed in front of mine... I got terrified when the lights went out (quite humorous actually) and I started CRYING because I was next to the window. SOOOOOO.... She walked (carried) me outside across the (at the time GINORMOUS) camp to the boys cabin, where my dad was. HAHA...

As I thought about it more and more, there is SO much I remember about her as my teacher. Then I found out she would not be my teacher, and I was devistated. I did not want to go back to the school. She was supposed to move to Chicago (which she did) BUT not as soon as expected... so I was SO upset to go back, thinking she was gone and I was going to have some mega bitch as my 5th grade teacher (which I did)... and I walked up to the entrance of the school, and MRS. CAMARATA is the one holing the door open. I ran up to her SO excited and thought she was back for good, BUT she wasn't...

So anyway, I contacted her recently... I am so psyched... Thought I would share the thoughts I had today!

&sigh;

SOOOO... I LOVE going to church. It's what I look forward to EVERY week. Sundays are my favorite. Everyone at the church is so amazing. BUT... Today, I just could not go. I was feeling so icky, and I have just not been in a good mood. I was so upset. I even cried over it. It really sucks that I can not go. =/ Oh well. I will see them all next week.