&homesick;

Ugh. I am really homesick. I feel extremely overwhelmed, and just want to cry. My mom is all stressed, and she snaps alot when she is stressed. I can't stand being in these situations. I miss Brittany. I don't like the cold. It's Brittany's sweet 16... That's my baby sister... and I can't even see her. I don't know whats happening with Mrs. Gallagher... and All the people I would normally go to for a crying shoulder aren't here. I don't know where to go. I feel so lost... and it sucks. I don't recall the last time I felt so isolated from the people around me. I am not a Seymour, TN type of person. I miss the city, and the palm trees. I cry too often, and I smile so much less. I'm tired of racist rednecks saying hurtful things to me about where I'm from. I don't like this place. The only thing good here is my family, my boyfriend, and a few select people. I wish we could move back to Orlando. Or atleast into Knoxville. I don't even know who I can trust to tell this to... It's so hard, but I know I need to stick it out. Even though I HATE what life has given me this time, a large part of me still remembers the important people who are here for me. I really love those people, and I know they care about me too. I just wish I could be with them. I don't know if ANYTHING I typed in this blog made sense, but it was just a big jumbled mess of random thoughts.