I am getting over this

I am getting over this icky sickness...
We haven't had school in 8 days....
I'm tired, and coughing, and aching...
but all complaints aside...
My antibiotic is helpful...
I'll be seeing an ENT, probably to get a tube put in my ear... oh joy!

Sometimes

I wonder where I'll be in 20 years... how much will I succeed? Where will my flaws be, and what will I regret? Hell... I wonder about 2 years from now... humm... random thought of the day

Scream at it, praise it, and stab it in the back!

Great weekend. I went to the movies and saw Valentines Day with Brandon. <3 Love Love Love Love. Then I came home, got on facebook... and for some unknown reason, Kevin deleted my facebook page... and I cried for a moment... screamed about it, and packed up and went to the Hilton resort to see some family staying in town for a couple days.
Then yesterday, I had church... and we went to 3 retirement homes after we left the church, and gave out Valentines hugs and "kisses." <3
Yeah, life is good... but I am so pissed about him deleting me... it really confuses me.

I also miss

Kevin knowing what was wrong before anyone...
just saying. He changed his profile picture today and it was a picture of HIM for the first time in months... and I cried... wtf?
ANYWAY
I had a good day aside from that.
Mommy and Sami hit the town, and got our nails done.
I felt understood for the first time since everything died.
That's how I address that dark time: When everything dies...
hmmmm...
Life is better every day. I still feel incomplete... listen to that song: Incomplete by Alanis... its in my playlist right there -->

You know?

You know what I miss:
I miss 3 am chats with Jeanne... lol...
I miss laughing till my stomach hurts on the phone with Raydel
I miss starbucks with Brittany
I miss acting with Kevin
I miss understanding people like Casey
I miss crying on Dixies shoulder
I miss reading bible verses that promote homosexuality with Judi
I miss skinny dipping with Brittany
I miss singing with Cassie
I miss 1st period with Brandon.
I miss Wet'n'Wild with Anna and Brit
I miss spending 7 hours at the mall with Julianna
I miss movies with Hannah
I miss Piña Coladas with Deanna
I miss hiking with Christi
I miss feeling welcome by people
I miss stopping by Carmen's room before school every day and laughing at her goofy husband.
I miss running away from Price trying to throw his shoe at me for forgetting my lines.
I miss laughing until I cried with Judy
I miss singing along with Amy at stardust
I miss being tossed 10 feet in the air while Dara screamed advice at me.