♥ 277 //

You are currently reading blog post 277 of this blog. I am SO close to 300. I can't wait. If I can remember, I will try and post my longest post EVER for 300. hehe
Anyway... today was long. Tomorrow is my last official day of school. After that, exams, and we're out!
I can't stand how my mom and dad act sometimes... I mean, grow up. Mom always tells me that I 'CHOOSE to let people influence' my day... and dad decides not to go to walmart with her because he needs time, and she gets all bitchy for the day... and then dad is so depressed when we are not financially wonderful, that he sits and does nothing... which adds to the instability of the financial situation... get it?

♥ kindra //

She's back. We cranked the lawn mower. Yeah, you're jealous. We are eating popcorn, candy, drinking unhealthy drinks, and she is eating slim jims... yeah... this will be a good night.

Colbie Caillat - Fallin' For You (Official Video)

I think this basically sums up my situation... but he's not that annoying... and he's definately more attractive... <3 lalala

why?

Wow. I really am falling for this guy.
Here's the thing though... I don't want to fall for him... wasn't exactly who I felt like I wanted to be with... and I feel like I am only 17... what do I know about love?
I don't want him to know I am falling for him either... but ugh. He's my first thought in the morning, and last thought at night. I get all giddy and bubbly when I think of him...
and I promised myself not to fall for anyone for a while...
WHY OH WHY?

So busy...

Originally uploaded by Suus Wansink

I feel like I do so much... and get left in the pouring rain. I feel like I put my heart into everything I do, and I do it to the fullest if I say I will... and what do I get out of it? A sore shoulder, a broken heart, and a punch in my self esteems gut. =(

The very ones who I thought I could trust to stay with me, seemed to have flown out my window, and they opened it by themselves...
This time, I didn't push them away... and I am left exhausted... and laying here... wondering what to do next!

Wow.

I haven't been on here in a while.
A LOT has happened. I broke a finger... =/
I went on a 6 mile hike in the Smoky Mt. National Park
I have been 2 weeks without seeing Chickadee
and 2 weeks without seeing Jake
We signed yearbooks
I cried
My "Loyal Reader" has not been posting
Wonder if all is well with him/her?

Hello lovely people

Sooo... I have had a few requests to give shout outs to certain blogs. I would like to say that I am not a major shouter-outer... but if you would like me to give a shout out in the next week or so, comment on this post with a LINK to your blog that you want promoted... NO personal websites. NO spam.

I will check out your blog, and decide whether it's worth the shout out or not.

My Mom

Dear Mom,
I know we have our differences. I know we argue a lot, and I am not always the ideal daughter... but even in that, you recognize the few ideal traits I have, and look at me with those.
I know I can be a pain at times, and I know sometimes you probably don't want to deal with me... but you do.
Even though we can be at each other's throats for days at a time, I still look at you, and have a big relief in my heart when I am reminded that our relationship is unique.
Most girls run and tell their best friend about the boy she met. Most girls run and talk to their best friend when they have a broken heart. And usually, most girls would sneak past their mom to go out with their best friend at night...
I am fortunate enough to say that you ARE my best friend in that respect, and I love that I can trust you that much.
Happy Mothers Day Mommy!!!

To all my moms

Dear Moms.
It's Mothers Day.
Of course I came from MY mommy, but I have picked up moms throughout the years. I love you ladies dearly. You all do a lot for me.
Sometimes I can feel lonely, useless, and insecure. Sometimes I can feel down, and in trouble. Sometimes I can feel like there is no pain like that that I am feeling... But always, one of you comes through for me.
I have felt lonely, forgotten, neglected, and insecure... and each time those little thoughts come into play, you tackle them down, and make me feel needed and loved.
I love you guys!

here.

She sits here
watching everyone
every day she grows
and she loves them more
but she simply watches
like her favorite show
and once in a while
they invite her on as a guest
but by the next episode
she has been forgotten
and nobody remembers her
nobody knows her love
and she weeps in the shadow
but is not noticed once
she is nobody's first thought
and nobody's last
but she loved them all
more than anyone loved them

Feeling Groovy

I am sitting in school right now.
The catch: We have no school today.
I am using a teachers computer to broadcast this blog.
I am being held by a 6 year old and a 4 year old.
It's cold.
I have a small space heater behind this desk.
They are torturing me with "Bolt"
The halls are empty. Nobody in sight.
Nobody in any classrooms.

=)

(^_^)

I love love love people. I think today will be wonderful.
I am heading up to pigeon forge for Lexie-Nay's birthday.
Life is so good.
My sinuses are acting like waterfalls. YAY. LOL.