Ever had a strange thing happen, and make it apparent that your bound to do something...?
Recognized destiny before it happened?
Well... I've been to Atlanta a few times... but I mean... I couldn't tell you left and right in Atlanta. I have JUST grown to know Knoxville, and I am SO attached to things that are here... and the people have CHANGED my life... between Christi, Kristi, Angelique, Jeanne, and MANY others I haven't mentioned in the blogs... I feel like I could never let all of them go... But I'll tell you... when I left Knoxville for Atlanta this past weekend, I felt like I was going home... and when I left Atlanta, I wanted to cry...
But I have been to a church in Atlanta with my church group... and I have had a dream every night this week that I pull up to the church, open my back car door, and pull out a little girl who is clearly mine. She has little dark curls, and must be 2 or 3.
I pull her out, and she doesn't want to put her shoes on. I explain the pavement is hot. She won't budge.
Kristi texts me in the middle of all of this, and asks if she and the kids would be welcome in my spare bedroom next weekend... I don't reply right away... and give my little girl a piggy back ride when she insists on keeping the shoes off. I drop her off in the nursery room, and climb back up the stairs to sit in the sanctuary, where I see plenty of familiar faces.
I told my best friend about it, and she said "well, whats in atlanta for you" to which I replied "I don't know, but it's calling my name."
Sometimes I wonder if time is linear or like a big circle and if we stand up above the circle we can look down on it and see the events at any different point. Dreams and deja-vu seem to indicate that one can perhaps glimpse into our future - or perhaps a sort of parallel universe that interprets possible futures. ;)
ReplyDeleteSo perhaps you feel like you're home in Atlanta because you indeed will be home in Atlanta and maybe that little girl is quite real as well. Then Again, Atlanta could be acting as a symbol of something else, perhaps freedom, independence or the desire for a different life.
(Putting down psychiatirst notepad now while looking at Sami lying on couch;)
"So how do you feel about the dream?"